It's been one of those months/years for me. Without going into all the personal details, Ken has been going through an emotional crisis this week, enough so that I thought an email he wrote was a suicide note. He has attempted to reassure me that suicide, though ever present in his mind, is not something he will follow through with. (Yikes! The dreaded "end the sentence with a preposition".) I cried so hard the other night, certain that I would find him dead the next day.
We talked to a rep from the Veterans Service Commission about applying for VA disability and SSDI. She said that it was too late to apply for SSDI, that he just needs Retirement from Social Security. To his credit, Ken did apply for disability from the VA, or so he said. I have been working on his SS application, but have reached a stalemate over Medicare. There are lots of questions about Medicare on the application, specifically Part B. Ken is very opposed to signing up for it because the premiums are so high. The question remains, though, whether he will continue to receive health care insurance from the VA. So it looks like we need to go talk to someone about this.
While Ken is going through this battle for his sanity, I feel like I'm losing my grip on life, too. I really wanted to go to Cedar Point last month, but it just didn't work out. The Section 8 inspection is tomorrow, and I seem to be the only one concerned about it. I said goodbye to my neurologist this past week; he's moving on to new adventures. The son of my best friend, Helen, got married last weekend; I wasn't invited - small wedding. But I sent Helen and her husband a cute card about welcoming a new daughter, and a card to Gary, and I haven't received any acknowledgement which surprises me and hurts a bit. Kristen and Lee are currently in South Africa. While I don't begrudge them the trip, I hate knowing she's not just a phone call away.
Assuming all goes well, Ken & I will be going to Philadelphia in August to volunteer at the VA Wheelchair Games. I've never been to Philly, so this should be a good trip.
